# taking a running jump
right into the absurdity of the social
one lands and flat splashes right into the deep end before gasping one's way to the side
you've such a useless wobbling git swanson
you can't swim more than ten meters at a time
you only got a 10m badge when you were ten
and even today can only manage an uneven backstroke
silently observe from the shallow side of the social gene pool
all the tanned slimline trendies cutting effortlessly up and down the crystalline water
envision them effortlessly moving through the clear water of their transparent lives
see the rare beauty move inside their form hugging costume
reminds you of cybernetic illustrations by legendary manga artists
try not to stare as though you care
also accidentally noticing them stare at multiple /shallow scars on your arms and chest
you wonder what they think about such emotional lines and existential tracks if anything
no it wasn't harm you want to say rather an important symbolic experiment in semi unconscious protoshamanistic elf discovery and polybiopsychic tribal sacrification to mark the ever fluid boundary between the mundane and magical world
which is only ever one world one infinite unbound living reality
personal rites of passage while facing terminal boredom and the existential depth pressure of everyday uk half life
cos it truly dread inner endland innit
like such an explanation would wash in polite pink social pool like this
more careless esoteric sleeve notes for basement archives never to be thought of or used again
but the nightly act of taking down notes for intense rnd purposes you know something about
for this is bright new day of deadpan low rent comitragedy
cosmic scale senses of fate that will always arrive once in your half lived nowhere lifetime lifeline dear henry
// [[republic of bob contents | imaginary pastime republic of bob]]