## Youtube/People [Patrick Teahan](https://www.youtube.com/@patrickteahanofficial/videos) * CPTSD content videos from a therapist, I believe he suffered childhood trauma as well. Associated with Relationship Recovery Process, a type of group therapy. [Heidi Priebe](https://www.youtube.com/@heidipriebe1) * More focused on attachment in general though has videos on CPTSD. [Anna Runkle - Crappy Childhood Fairy](https://www.youtube.com/@CrappyChildhoodFairy) * I've found some of her videos decent but her video style is not for me. [Joe Hudson](https://www.youtube.com/@ArtofAccomplishment) * By Joe Hudson, a coach with a heavy meditation background. The gems are his quick coaching sessions. He's engaging and very attuned. * His video where he asks the client to get angry at him was very healing to me [This is why you're so hard on yourself (Coaching with Joe)](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=guz__bc2x7M) [Dr Tom Bellamy](https://www.youtube.com/@DrTomBellamy) * Neuroscientist who both researched and experienced limerence [Dr. Rick Hanson](https://www.youtube.com/@RickHanson/videos) * Psych PhD, with a focus on meditation. Really warm presence and lots of free meditations. Discusses his own traumas. * Made the HEAL framework [Forrest Hanson](https://www.youtube.com/@ForrestHanson) * Rick Hanson's son, does a lot of interviews and content with Rick. Fun content but not the most useful imo. [Tara Brach](https://www.youtube.com/@TaraBrach) * Made the RAIN framework, focus on Buddhist meditations. Really excellent meditations, I find her embodied metta meditations great. [Tim Fletcher](https://www.youtube.com/@TimFletcher/videos) * CPTSD focused, kind of similar in vibe to Bradshaw. [Dr Kirk Honda](https://www.youtube.com/@PsychologyInSeattle) * Therapist with more general fun content but good warm presence. His patreon podcast is excellent, with multi-hour long deep dives into topics. ## Books Pete Walker [Complex PTSD: Surviving to Thriving](https://amzn.to/4sMsCND) * One of the seminal books on CPTSD, written for people with CPTSD. Discusses symptoms and flashback management. Many people's first book. I think some of his methods, like feeling the abandonment pain can be too dysregulating for people. [The Tao of Fulling Feeling](https://amzn.to/4sInJ8j) * Definitely more of an intermediate book, I find it more like a reference for different forms of abuse that someone with CPTSD might not realize is abuse. John Bradshaw [Healing the Shame that Binds You](https://amzn.to/4tmwPc2) * A classic by Bradshaw, part 1 goes through CPTSD symptoms, part 2 are recovery methods. As I'm skimming through it now, while good and comprehensive, it's quite dense and can be overwhelming on the things to do. I skipped part three which seems to be more on spiritual stuff? * Kindle version has bad formatting (the chapters on the side bar have no names) * [John Bradshaw -- The Amazing Power of Your Inner Child](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AQwJ3DpRrvU&list=PLibM1kwMgi2nQ6JVsFpwrqJjr_9ail6Xe) [Homecoming](https://amzn.to/41BgX9n) * HEAVY emphasis on inner child work. Has some interesting exercises, but a bit too much for me eg sections on Infant, Toddler, Pre-school, School Age. But might resonate with others. * [John Bradshaw Homecoming - #1 Problem Of the Wounded Child](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xz-TqZzY2DY&list=PL4wA21d2cgvG_Q5cB1pnwNO6CoEk65W5G) [The Drama of the Gifted Child](https://amzn.to/4etcI7e) * The first book I read that made me realize I was abused. "I simply meant all of us who have survived an abusive childhood thanks to an ability to adapt even to unspeakable cruelty by becoming numb" * "So it is not the frustration of his wish that is humiliating for the child, but the contempt shown for his person. The suffering is accentuated by the parents’ demonstrating their “grown-upness” to avenge themselves unconsciously on their child for their own earlier humiliation." [What my Bones Know](https://amzn.to/4crLJq4) * A memoir about Foo's journey with CPTSD. I personally found it helpful, and cried at several moments. Other people find it triggering since she has the resources to do a bunch of different stuff. Author is an Asian woman. * Foo posted on Reddit a few times and has some YT interview * [Instagram Live with Stephanie Foo and Jacob Ham](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=guv10aN2yp4&pp=ygUNc3RlcGhhbmllIGZvbw%3D%3D) * [Living with Complex PTSD | Stephanie Foo, Being Well Podcast - YouTube](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=M87EnFLqS00) Rick Hanson [Hardwiring Happiness](https://amzn.to/4edpRl1) * Introduces the HEAL framework for developing well-being. If I had to pick 1 book from him, it'd be this one. He narrates the audiobook and is excellent. There are many exercises and meditations that he guides. * https://rickhanson.com/meditations-for-happiness-love-and-inner-peace/ - lots of meditations [Resilient](https://amzn.to/4cuU6kH) * Decent book on positive psychology, though I feel like more of a reference on different states of well-being. Skippable. [Neurodharma](https://amzn.to/42dGK7A) * Neuroscience of meditation practices, you'll see a seem similarities with his other work. I personally really like it, but people looking for things that are more CPTSD specific can skip. Kristin Neff [Self-Compassion](https://amzn.to/48T1e9o) * One of the OG self-compassion researchers, Neff goes through different aspects of self-compassion, which is more complex than it seems. Neff explains that self-compassion is the opposite emotion to shame, which dovetails with Bradshaw's Toxic Shame. I think at the time I read this, I didn't appreciate it. Short and easy to read. * https://self-compassion.org/self-compassion-practices/ - website with meditations to download, the annoyingly, trying to get you to give an email now. * Also on YouTube [Mindful Self-Compassion for Burnout Workbook](https://amzn.to/4myOr1E) * Workbook style, goes through many self-compassion themes. I think might be helpful for some people, and if I had to pick one, pick this over her OG book. If I could pick two, it'd be this + the OG (ie not the book version of this) Tara Brach [Radical Acceptance](https://amzn.to/3QuIBlT) * The radical acceptance is of yourself. A classic book that talks about her framework RAIN. At the time, I did not appreciate this book. Takes a Buddhist meditation framework. * https://www.tarabrach.com/guided-meditations/ - meditations here and for download [Radical Compassion](https://amzn.to/4dUSNxQ) * If I had to pick 1, this would be the Brach book. Mainly it's about RAIN and has a bunch of different exercises. The audiobook (I haven't tried it), is narrated by her so probably good. [True Refuge](https://amzn.to/4tiNld1) * A more directly Buddhist book slant, it also covers the RAIN material. While interesting, I would probably skip. [How to Raise a Healthy Gamer](https://amzn.to/4tNmR34) * Despite the name, about technology addiction. While probably useful for parenting, this was more to learn how to re-parent myself e.g. how to parents set healthy boundaries? Work with their kids? Would overall recommend, particularly because there's some good tips around technology in general. * https://youtu.be/6kJzzo7deDY - 3 hour stream on trauma. I will say, I like his content, but I think there's better stuff on CPTSD. I love his interview content. [Raising Securely Attached Kids](https://amzn.to/4ciFRAF) * Similar to before, its useful if you don't understand what good parenting looks like. If I had to pick 1 book on parenting, it'd be this one. [Good Kids: Why You Suffered in Silence and How to Break the Cycle](https://amzn.to/4cxYob0) * Really excellent book, targeted towards parents with trauma. Since this is targeted to a specific type of person (unrelenting standards) though, you should read the blurb to see if it resonates with you. * If you grew up as a Good Kid, you probably heard these words a lot. And you were good. Quiet. Easy. Responsible. So disciplined, you basically raised yourself. You're the one everyone counts on - and you wear it like a good star. But nobody ever checks on you. And you're exhausted from proving your goodness by being an overachieving, people pleasing, perfectionist, pushover, and shape-shifting chameleon. [Re-Regulated](https://amzn.to/4dPWRzt) * Picked this up because I've enjoyed some of Anna Runkle's YouTube video but found this a bit thin and maybe a bit oversold on the promises? Would skip. [Embracing Our Fragmented Selves](https://amzn.to/4tT2GRi) * by Janina Fisher an expert in trauma. This is probably my current favorite book on trauma recovery. Basically a more stripped down version of IFS that is more ... "scientific"? Might be the best word. * This is specifically the workbook version. [Unlocking the Emotional Brain](https://amzn.to/487qKHO) * By Bruce Ecker, it's a book on the theories behind Coherence Therapy, while I really enjoyed it, it's a textbook aimed at clinicians. * He definitely handwaves some flaws in Coherence Therapy away which is a bit annoying. [Coherence Therapy Practice Manual and Guide](https://amzn.to/3ObqEbz) * Highly recommend, it goes through the main concepts of Coherence Therapy but I think it can be useful for anyone. * This is my primary framework for understanding my own trauma. [Reinventing Your Life](https://amzn.to/4tNqfei) * A book by the Schema Therapy founder, Jeffrey Young. He was one of the original CBT people but began to find that CBT was useless for certain types of trauma, and invented Schema Therapy. Has quizzes on the Early Maladaptive Schemas, their origins, and how to resolve them. Highly recommend. [Adult Children of Emotionally Immature Parents](https://amzn.to/489Vyrp) * I think overall an good book, but personally, I spent too much time trying to figure out which one of the 4 types of emotionally immature parent my parents were. I felt a vague sense of like "they're all of them". [The Body Keeps the Score](https://amzn.to/3QMvrAP) * This is definitely a case of, I read this too late in my journey,