- [[That I can not be a normal person taking a normal job]] - [[That I need to sleep so fucking much]] - [[That I do not know how to set healthy boundaries for myself]] - [[That I have no good answer to the question 'So, what do you want']] - [[That I still, at 40, do not know how to manage money]] - [[That I can not go to the gym safely because of Corona]] - [[The traumatizing news-cycle of the past 4 years]] - [[That I prefer to live in a dream-world than actually do something about my situation]] - [[That I did not express how destabilizing my mothers illness was for me]] - [[That I was alone in dealing with my mothers death]] - [[That I still feel grief but can not express it in a healthy way]] - [[That I feel like a complete loser at 42]] - [[That I am still flip-flopping between work options without a clear decision]] - [[That I feel utterly worthless most of the time]] - [[That I still bite my nails at age 42]]