# Personal Break-Through Session with Psylocybin #psychedelics #naturalmedicine #selfmedication ## Dosage on Friday 30.5.2020 Approximately 600mg in home-made capsules taken with a lot of water. Trippy, comfortable on couch in the evening. Noticeable "breathing" of surfaces, noticeable and "observable" liquification of solid surfaces like my counter-top. Definitely a fore-runner of virtual-reality interfaces. Computer screens and psychedelics are clearly interlinked culturally. ## Emotional break-through Monday 3.6.2020 Saturday, Sunday and Monday very positive and connected. Leads to Monday's focus on "What I want...": - [[6.6.2020]] - [[Goal Setting to the NOW - 2.6.2020]] Friday's experience emotionally connected and key-component of Monday evening breakdown. Realization that there's something really fucked up hiding in the shadows. Turns out a long-standing, 20 year old trauma of psychological, physical and sexual abuse over the course of 2 years that left me broken, feeling worthless and depressed. This experience was clearly supported by both, openness from [[Psilocybin]] and the ability to "sit in the fire" from Ritalin